Trying...

I want to cry hard... but I musn't...
I want to scream... but I should be silent...
I want to turn back... but it's useless
I want to call... but I promised not to...
I want to share to others... but they will celebrate...
I want to die... but God keeps me awake...

I'm trying... help me Lord to try... Your grace and mercy will keep me tight...

For the remaining week...
For the rest of the month...
Till the next few months...
Till I rest in Your arms peacefully and joyfully...

Trying... but I know I will fail. Its only You who could...